Consider how much human energy is expended in discovering what’s inside us.
Entire industries, advancing technologies and schools of learning exist to help us peer into our physical beings.
A billion words have been written in developing insight of our emotional and psychological beings.
If our skin and organs were transparent and our thoughts and feelings were unflinchingly displayed in speech bubbles above our head, many people would be out of a job and the world far less mysterious.
As children, we are inclined not to think of it, we accept our bodies and our emotions for what they are, unaware yet inmersed in their secrets.
As we grow old the tendency is to want or need to delve internally whether to be certain of physical health or to understand our stubbornly elusive feelings and thoughts.
Perhaps it has always been this way – just multuplied by modern preoccupation. An ancient poem shows the fascination is not new:
You created the deepest parts of my being. You put me together inside my mother’s body. Psalm 139:13 NIRV
An older writer, David, ponders the wonders of how he has come to be and the narrowness of his vision compared to the sightfulness of the Creator, who has seen even inside him:
My frame was not hidden from You when I was being formed in secret [and] intricately and curiously wrought [as if embroidered with various colors] in the depths of the earth [a region of darkness and mystery]. Psalm 139:15 AMP
‘Deepest parts’ ‘formed in secret’ and David is reassured that God at least is witness to what we are, our intricacies and mysteries.
We do well to better know ourselves, especially with the benefit of years, and not just stumble blindly when we could learn from all that has come before. Why repeat endlessly when even a moment’s reflection might illuminate?
We do even better to know One who knows ourselves beyond what can be even known by our best minds. David had at his disposal every human resource of wealth and power but still collapsed in awe at what he didn’t know and couldn’t do and before God that does.
Our deepest parts attract endless exploration and too little revelation.
Time to ask:
‘Search me [thoroughly], O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there is any wicked or hurtful way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.’